Well it’s been a while. I feel like I say that every time I start a new blog post, but it really has been almost a year since I’ve posted anything… let me catch you all up since last you saw a post from me! I got married to the Love of my Life second to Jesus. I’ve grown as a person and learned a lot of lessons. Hopefully whoever reads this will see what as I share each thing the Lord has unraveled in me! So the reason I titled my post “before I end the day” is because recently I’ve been texting that to my devotional accountability buddy! I think hey that’s a great thing because it’s still on my mind. The beauty of the refreshing word of God is that as you press more in it you want it more. So all day since I woke up I was thinking when am I gonna get to my secret garden which is where this blog all started. A place where I could be vulnerable with Jesus and share with whoever would want to read this journey that I’m on with Jesus! It’s a lifetime kinda thing. So even tho I’ve grown I gotta grow MORE. I need to seek MORE. I need to let go MORE. I need to SURRENDER MORE. I need to bow down MORE! I need JESUS more!

I want to start this out with sharing something I’ve been meditating on for the last few days and honestly it’s so full probably a lot more days. So my desire is to be in my secret place and spend all this time with Jesus because it truly is my hiding place it’s my place where peace is found and gets found in me because maybe when I leave that physical place, it doesn’t LEAVE ME! Does that make sense? I’m in him and he’s in me. It’s a marriage. In this year I’ve learned the selfish way to do marriage and the righteous way to do it which has nothing to do with me! It has to do with the one you married. So first and foremost I married Jesus when I accepted him in my heart. So in this marriage I did it selfishly I went to Him When I wanted something I went to pray when I was overwhelmed. I sought him when I thought I needed to or even wanted to. So basically I wanted to be married to me because I wanted what I wanted. Your first marriage to Jesus will reflect your second! Always so it did. It would be good in moments yet hurtful in other moments. I’m not sharing this to have anyone feel bad for me I’m sharing this because there’s a HEALING HAPPENING IN Y FIRST MARRIAGE there for the EVIDENCE IS BEING SEEN IN MY SECOND!

In proverbs 9 it says…

“The starting point for acquiring wisdom is to be consumed with awe as you worship Yahweh. To receive the revelation of the Holy One, you must come to the one who has living-understanding.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭9:10‬ ‭TPT‬‬

Omgoodness do I love that verse and I’m gonna work it in reverse because we need to have this deep desire to be with Jesus and it comes as we do it more. There is action involved. Once you do that and you spend more time with Jesus it becomes a beautiful desire you always want. You become the wise. below I’m gonna share another verse.

“Wisdom has built herself a palace upon seven pillars to keep it secure. She has made ready a banquet feast and the sacrifice has been killed. She has mingled her wine, and the table’s all set.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭9:1-2‬ ‭TPT‬‬

When you begin in the secret place you can do everything else. You can prepare things. Make the breakfast you can respond kindly. Because it’s in you. The secret place is in you! So today I want to encourage you to go ahead and seek Him!