When i originally thought of a title for this blog it was “I don’t want to rush this” thats something I’ve been saying when the Lord is continuing to pour out in me. However those are for the moments I want to be there. What do I do when those moments I’m just not feeling it? Because everything is good when its good right? I think the Word is a continual washing of my sprit a constant cleansing. So I can’t afford to Rush this time. Yes there are moments I don’t want to be there i’m so full of emotion that i don’t want to sing I want to flee. I want to run, but I hear my spirit say “You can’t afford to Rush this”.

Even as I write this my heart is so tender because I don’t just rush my time, but I Rush the Revelation. I rush the understanding part of being with Jesus. Wouldn’t it be so much better for me to just be with Him instead of blaming others for why I can’t be with Him? Even in this time I’m learning me in His hands and I can’t rush that. What he’s saying to me its there and I need to just wait on it. Some days it feels like I was making strides with God and other days it’s like I took five steps back or even more. Everyday I don’t rush Jesus its like I’m seeing for the very first time something new. He opens my eyes, my ears and my heart. Faith works by Love. So when I go to that place to be with Him what good does it for for me to get frustrated.

‘Then the Pharisees asked the man, “How did you have your sight restored?” He replied, “A man anointed my eyes with clay, then I washed, and now I can see for the first time in my life!”’ John 9:15

I wanted to share that verse above because I can imagine how lost this blind man could’ve been when he desired His whole life to see and he couldn’t from birth, then one day Jesus comes and gives Him his sight. I Love how the passion says it “Now I can see for the first time in my life”. Imagine what getting away with God does when he washes you over that even if you’ve read that verse before or that chapter when you soak in it, it becomes like seeing for the first time in your Life.

So I want to declare his word. Lets read this out loud!

‘Your magnificent splendor and the miracles of your majesty are my constant meditation. Your awe-inspiring acts of power have everyone talking! I’m telling people everywhere about your excellent greatness! Our hearts bubble over as we celebrate the fame of your marvelous beauty, bringing bliss to our hearts . We shout with ecstatic joy over your breakthrough for us. You’re kind and tenderhearted to those who don’t deserve it and very patient with people who fail you. Your love is like a flooding river overflowing its banks with kindness. God, everyone sees your goodness, for your tender love is blended into everything you do. Everything you have made will praise you, fulfilling its purpose. And all your godly ones will be found bowing before you.’ Psalms 145:5-10

This is the kind of joy that we receive when we are able to be there when we don’t want to , or even when we want to. So often we Rush into the next thing instead of just waiting and allowing God to speak to us. I always think i’m being patient and then there is more time added and really I could’ve waited a bit longer. So my encouragement to everyone and even to myself is we can’t afford to Rush what God is doing on the inside of us. He’s creating the right words so that when we speak its Joy. I know that I’ll make many mistakes, and I won’t be perfect, but I do need to trust that His word is truth and as long as I remain in His hands everyday with Him will be like i’m seeing for teh first time. Everything that will come out of my Mouth will be Life giving and praise worthy.

“love is directly opposed to the senses. They have been trained to selfishly seek their own way. But love, The WORD says, does not seek its own rights or its own way. And to walk in love, you must demand that your senses––your flesh—be subject to The WORD.”

Excerpt From
Limitless Love
Kenneth Copeland & Gloria Copeland

My blog to you all is speaking to me before it speaks to you all i’m just letting you in my journal, i’m learning to trust and make Gods word my final authority and honestly I can’t afford to Rush the work he’s doing in me.

me just trying to pet some goat. honestly trying to probably trying rush the process…