Hmm maybe I got it backwards.. let’s talk about it!

Have you ever woke up in the morning and just fetl…off? It’s almost like a tugging in your gut…telling you that you missed something or that something was out of place. I woke up a few days ago and I thought to myself, “Hmmm maybe I got it backwards.” Immediately I knew I needed to have a discussion with myself. The Holy Spirit had been speaking to me and I needed to sit up and listen. I needed to change my posture. In my time with Jesus that morning our Word of Life devotional, Free & Fearless, spoke loudly to my spirit. It was just one of those moments when you’re like “ahhhh…I get it now. WOW! I can see it! Snap!”

Those are such incredible kinds of moments to me because when they hit, it all starts coming together. God takes you back to your Original place where it’s just you and Him. It’s an alignment of your spirit back to the Father. In that exact moment, you are who He needs you to be. Your posture is aligned with His purpose for your life. But those moments don’t come easy. They can be painful. It’s like when you go to the chiropractor and they need to adjust your back because the posture is off. It can be painful in that moment and the more you fight it, the more damage can be done! I’ve gone through some merry-go-rounds with Him over the years because I constantly resisted on my end. Let me tell you–there is NOTHING merry about it! However, the fact remains–God is ALWAYS good. 

I want to share a little bit about what’s been going on with me lately, and maybe you can relate. See as this quarantine began, I was lowkey excited! I thought to myself, “ohhh yeah more time with my family and with people I love!” However, that quickly took a turn. Some of you may have read my last two blogs so you know what’s up. God was strippig a lot of things about my physical appearance. Things that I thought I needed in my life like my iconic lash extensions or my long acrylic nails. All of these characteristics that I thought made me “beautiful.” It’s just like the enemy to lie to us like that and tempt us to “live in the lie”. The thing that’s so dangerous is sometimes you don’t know it’s a lie and you think it’s the reality. When you begin to become familiar, you drift further and further from the Heart of God. But the goodness of God extends to His guidance and correction of our actions. He never fails to continue beckoning us back to Him. Trust me, I was hearing the voice of God telling me that I needed to release certain habits and feelings. At the same time, I was not holding on to His promise for my life or trusting Him. Let me tell you this–when we don’t trust in Jesus, we don’t have peace. That discomfort is what leads us back to the old because our spirit knows something is missing, so it looks for something to settle it. We need to understand, however, that the old can make everything even worse when we don’t have Jesus in the middle. Why? Because we know who we are and we let the “feel” (this is a big one) become more important than the trust! When we don’t give in to what we “feel,” we’re able to get back to who He’s called us to be. 

The reality is that we can get there quickly, but TRULY when the Bible tells us to  “renew our mind”…we need to do it! A common phrase we’ve hard recently is “essential workers” or “essential jobs.” Well renewing your mind is an “ESSENTIAL,” because when your mind changes it speaks to your heart and your heart speaks to your soul which is your whole body. As you can clearly see they are all intertwined! 

Family, believe me when I tell you–God was chipping away at my heart. He began from day one of quarantine and it was a battle because I was hyper focused on myself. Even when I would try to do things for others, it would still translate into selfishness. I’m thankful for the people God has placed in my life who won’t lie to me (even when I want them to LOL!) and they remind me of who I really am. I want to encourage you to be around those people who see who you really are. Those that tell you, “listen, you’re already beautiful but with Jesus nothing even compares!” I’m writing this blog to share with you that as much as you don’t want to admit to yourself “I was wrong” or relieve the pain in your life…it’s necessary to go there for your COMPLETE healing. Let God work on “every body part.” This means that you need to allow healing into the places you don’t remember.  Those things that just fester and never gets taken out from deep inside of you. 

Let’s read this verse together:

“Mercy kissed me, even though I used to be a blasphemer, a persecutor of believers, and a scorner of what turned out to be true. I was ignorant and didn’t know what I was doing.” 

1 Timothy 1:13 TPT

Reading this scripture, I’m reminded of aunty’s instagram post. Some of you might know her as Kellie Copeland AKA “Commander Kellie.” She’s been such an example of complete surrender to Jesus for me. She’s completely open to whatever He wants to do in her life. She shared this verse on her page and as soon as I read it, it completely wrecked me to pieces. God was still chipping away at my heart all night and into the next morning when I saw a video of how humanity was being treated! It completely tore me up! 

So maybe you’re asking “Lexi, where are you going with this?”  Well,I believe God wants to get you to your MOST beautiful posture–the posture of your purpose. We are taken back to that light and pulled back into the arms of the Father as we read this verse together: 

“But if we keep living in the pure light that surrounds Him, we share unbroken fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, continually cleanses us from all sin.”

1 John 1:7 TPT

The main thing that I want you to take away is that we need to go back to The Original. We must allow Him to show us HIS purpose and trust HIS voice in everything. The more we’re about Jesus the less we are about our selves and the closer we are to the posture of purpose.

What is beauty to you?

Hey whats up everyone! How have you all been during this season of quarantine?

During this time, I’ve been thinking about what “beauty” means to me. Now traditionally when we hear the term “beauty,” we think of the whole works— makeup, lashes, skincare and of course our overall physical appearance. Now ladies, this blog is especially for you. Yes, YOU!

I guess the first question I’ve been asking myself is—when do we start believing we are beautiful?

Is it the first time someone calls us “beautiful”? Or do people constantly need to remind us?

My entire life, I’ve been struggling to grasp this concept. But the most important thing I need to remember to believe is the truth. The truth is what God says about me.

This very simple verse strengthens me in understanding beauty:

“Under His wings you will find refuge.”

— Psalm 91:1

One of the most important things I’ve come to understand is that I am constantly covered under HIS refuge. No matter what. Even now when I don’t have my nails done. When I don’t have my signature lash extensions anymore. When everything looks like the T-Rex chasing the Jeep in Jurassic Park—“Objects in mirror are closer than they appear.” Way too close for comfort. They’re magnified x1000!

Not gonna lie to you guys, I was the one that came up with this brilliant idea to take my lashes off. I’ve been wanting to do it for a while but it’s been a serious fear for me because I would have to see myself every single day. And it’s so uncomfortable. As I write this, we are currently in day 1 of no lash extensions. On the real—I’m strugglin! I came downstairs after having them removed and every single person in my family stopped me saying “whoa you have no lashes!” I was like “ughhh come on guys!” I feel like I can’t get mad at anyone because they’re just reacting to something new. I can’t control what other people say about the way I look or how I feel when they have the right to an opinion. Girl, that’s the TRUTH! However, what I CAN change is the way that I decide to view myself. I want to see myself as being under His Refuge, carried in His arms, and bathed in His wrap around presence. Honestly there are some days I feel so incredibly beautiful and other days I don’t but the fact remains that Jesus created me in His image and my eternal journey is to believe what he says about me. That’s where beauty comes from. Ladies, I ask you this—“What does beauty mean to you?”

I’ve posed this question to a few of my friends.

My friend Siai said this:

“What is true beauty?

Genesis 1:27 So God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male & female He created them.

Beauty exists not because of what we wear, the brand of make up we put on or the talent we have. Beauty exists because of WHO we represent- God the Creator. If you read in Genesis, you will see that after EVERY creation, God stepped back and said IT IS GOOD!

He didn’t say “let me redo that one or oops I made a mistake.” He approved of EVERYTHING&EVERYONE He made and called us GOOD!

I pray that the next time we define beauty, we would know that WE are the image of beauty because we are the image of God! May every insecurity be put on the shelf, may every negative voice of the enemy be silenced and may we find our confidence in God alone because it is HE that we represent!”

She’s the pastor of Great Life Church in LV with her husband and I love her perspective!

Also some words from my lovely friend

Jazzy. She has the most beautiful heart—here’s what she had to say:

“Beauty in my eyes is a quality that is in EVERY man & woman because of the fact of what Gods word says in Genesis 1:27, we were made in His image. It is not defined by material things or physical appearance, but it starts in your heart, mind, and spirit. It is a joyful, graceful, humble, & confident state. It is LOVE. It is God in our hearts because He is love, and by knowing our creator is knowing we are his masterpiece. Ephesians 2:10. We are all definitions of beauty. ✨”

Now for my other dear Friend some know her as Channy boo cakes from her instagram but I call her my belly laugh buddy! Here are her words here! Love her so much! Enjoy!

“Growing up, I’ve always been conditioned to believe that beauty was the way that something looked. Everything needed to appear ‘put together.’ A great outfit. Flawless skin. Healthy hair that shines in the sun. While those things are still aesthetically pleasing, how is beauty truly defined?

The biggest struggle I’ve had with beauty is viewing myself as beautiful no matter what. That struggle has mostly been with my weight. It’s something I deal with every single day. The argument that being the biggest girl in the group means I won’t get noticed by guys as anything more than ‘the cool girl’ or ‘the funny girl’ and not as a girl who’s beautiful. But you know what? I’ve come to understand that beauty is reflected in the way something shines below the surface of our skin and the way we carry ourselves. It’s displayed in the way we love. It reflects in the condition of our hearts. If Jesus lives there, what could be more beautiful?! He is the very definition of love, and beauty will shine through our hearts without us needing to put in an ounce of effort. Has it always been easy? ABSOLUTELY NOT! I still deal with arguments on the daily, but I always strive to come back to the heart of the matter—and that’s beauty.

Xoxo Channy”

What can you take away about what’s written here?

What I took away is…

God always looks at us and says “hmmm it is good” from Siai he says we are good and we are loved it’s deeper for Him then just the surface and the root to that simple fact is this he created you and he creates what is pleasing to Him!

Second take away from Jazzy is the beauty being something that comes from the inside not the outside. Having an incredible time in the presence of God and soaking there! I believe that’s what she’s been doing and I can see that’s all over her because she glows!

Third person, and third take away from Channy is this… being someone who has also struggled with my weight I heavily relied on my face being the thing that people liked. My dimple in my face my lashes and having the nice outfit even if I was bigger. What I see Is the Love of God she hears and that’s the first opinion she goes to and it’s not Cocky like yeah I’m pretty and whatever I don’t care but it’s a freedom that comes from Jesus daily and that’s what I believe Channy was talking about!

So this encouraged me and I pray and hope it encourages you too!!!!

Seeing through the right lens!

My entire life, I’ve always seen through a specific type of lens. I think many of us end up looking through whatever lens our particular season hands us. If you’re like me you, then you have the tendency to shift lenses. But seeing everything through the same narrow lens day in and day out is what can keep us fixed in the same spot for far too long! In order to grow and change we need to make adjustments to lens we’re looking through 👓! However, there is one lens we cannot ever compromise—it’s the Jesus Lens. The Jesus Lens is how The Father views us and it’s how we were created—in His likeness and image. Let me explain.

I wanna get real with you about the lens that I’ve been looking through lately. Actually, I hear so many people have the tendency to use the same one and it’s called “comparison.” A song I’ve been mediating on recently is called “Comparison Kills” and it has really been speaking to me! To be honest, I’ve been using the lens of comparison more often than I ever realized. Here’s some of the backstory on when I first realized it:

In December of last year, so many people would ask me “hey do you wanna workout.” I would quickly reply, “ahhhh nooooo that’s gonna be a hard pass!” One of my friends actually asked me why I didn’t want to work out and I got so upset! Without me even knowing it, my friend hit a soft spot simply by asking me that little three letter word that I never wanted to answer—“WHY?”

It all comes down to being stretched and feeling those growing pains. I didn’t want to reveal the true reason—that I was scared and that it was too embarrassing for me to run the risk of looking stupid in the gym because it’s unfamiliar territory for me. But this year? I knew it was something that my body needed so I started to go to the gym with my friend Jess. When we went together, I felt comfortable with her. But how many of us know that God doesn’t do “comfortable”? He wants us to grow and in order to grow, we need to step out of our comfort zone! When I made the decision to take on step, I gave the Holy Spirit permission to have His way and continue stretching me. How did He do that? By leading my boyfriend to ask me to workout with him. Oh-em-gee! Ladies, I don’t know about you, but for me—working out in front of my man is a challenge and a half! Naturally, I was like thinking “I’ll tell him yes but we really won’t be able to do it because our schedules won’t work” HAHA! Well guess what? God had something else in mind.

Something I really wanted was for my boyfriend to come with me on a trip to Bogotá, Colombia 🇨🇴 with people from our church and my family. I knew it was going to be such an incredible time for both of us spiritually and I believed it would help us to grow together. The whole time I was thinking of other areas God would allow me to grow in—not the one I’d been avoiding. 😏 Oh, man! I was just thinking like a normal girl “the boy I like is coming on this trip with me and the stretching won’t be painful we’re gonna worship Jesus and be in that place” Well, guess what one of the first things my boyfriend says to me; “Let’s workout together” 😳 Immediately I started sweating. My forehead was sweating and I was even getting that upper lip sweat—you know the kind! I was thinking “ughhhhh whyyyy!!” It’s not like there was a way to escape. I mean we wouldn’t have conflicting schedules because we were together all the time. I couldn’t be like “ummm my schedule is too packed—sorry!” Haha NOPE! Let’s just say that the lens of compassion was zoomed ALL THE WAY IN. Now my boyfriend knows his way around the gym. It’s part of his everyday routine because he’s been an athlete pretty much all his life. 😒 uhhh yeah So I was like—“this is embarrassing..”

I’m telling you this story because I thought I was so free in this area. Really, I did! I didn’t think I was comparing myself with anyone before. Needless to say, my INSECURITIES GOT MAGNIFIED in that lens! It was zoomed in x1000! But you know what? I truly believe with my whole heart ❤️ God will do that. I know for myself, it happens almost every single time! Here is something I learned—when God begins to raise the bar in your life you need to climb higher and you need to flex more muscle in order to get to where He needs you to be! If you don’t have the muscle for it then you need to build that muscle or you won’t be able to reach the bar!

Let’s take a look at what the Word says:
“Since this is the kind of life we have chosen, the life of the Spirit, let us make sure that we do not just hold it as an idea in our heads or a sentiment in our hearts, but work out its implications in every detail of our lives. That means we will not compare ourselves with each other as if one of us were better and another worse. We have far more interesting things to do with our lives. Each of us is an original.”
Galatians‬ ‭5:25-26‬ ‭MSG

There it is! We have chosen to live this life as disciples of Jesus. He instructs us to work out every single detail of our lives, not just some. We need to take a hard look at all areas of our lives so that we can continue to walk in this life that He has called us to! SIDENOTE: Can we take a moment to appreciate that the Bible says “work out” and “compare” in the same verse? He knew about my struggle with exercise before I even did! 😅

In order to grow we need to see where we’ve been lacking. I stopped being goal oriented person somewhere along the way. I only came to this realization when I began to look through the right lens. Now I didn’t understand this out of hurt or embarrassment. I understood because God placed some one who truly cares about me in my life to tell me the TRUTH even tho I wanted to cover my ears the whole time!

I’ve realized that I’m who needs to work a little bit harder on committing to goals. I used to be really great at achieving goals in the past, but I had gotten completely comfortable with my limits. I just decided to live in that comfort and only focus on the things I knew I was good at.

Honestly I could still do that today but this blog post is about seeing through Gods lens. Allowing Him to expose my weaknesses and knowing that’s the only way He can fill our cup! We need to continue growing and we should all want to know He’s calling us: Spirit, Soul, & Body.

The funniest thing about all of this exactly a year ago I wrote about this same thing, but was still not being a good watchman over all areas of my life. I can’t compare myself to my boyfriend, my sisters, my friends or even my past self! I mean…I have one friend who can do amazing flips 🤸🏻‍♀️ and I’m definitely not gonna compare in that area—I will stay in my lane. 😂

I truly believe God brought the right people in my life to keep me accountable and to be good watchmen with me. We aren’t called to do anything alone. In order to move forward in life we cannot ever focus on things through the lens of comparison. Instead, we need to constantly see ourselves through God’s Lens!

Trust: own your season!

I know the last time I shared with you that I would give my Rhema word!

So the Rhema I received for 2018 which carried into my 2019 was Matthew 5:8

““What bliss you experience when your heart is pure! For then your eyes will open to see more and more of God.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5:8‬ ‭TPT‬‬

So as I began to deal with my heart I had a lot of good sources helping me deal with what was happening in there.

I began to understand so many things about my self image… I wasn’t seeing myself the Way God saw and has always seen me, I was seeing myself as someone who wanted it all but didn’t have anything to change. There were many insecurities seeping out of my heart ❤️ that I never wanted to see. I was being unraveled unthreaded!

God exposed me in my garden which I didn’t even know I had. He showed me in the secret place with Him that I needed to be able to go there! He so lovingly showed me truth in a blissful way yet it was so painful.

In even tough Season and just every season there are adjustments needed to be made always a lesson to be learned to grow!!! So when I was in this time and God began reveal how and where I needed to trust. It was far before I thought I needed to . It was a time I was falling yet I didn’t think I was. Right when this season began in me God sent someone to speak to me and in my own words “Get up girl I’m gonna walk you through this lovingly yet it will be painful but its okay.”

A mentor in my life Leala Lamarche  ( you may know her she’s poured out in so many lives and never asks for anything in return) sent me this message I’m only gonna share with you a portion..

but she said this :

“You’re more than qualified so be fearless in trusting God’s leading just as you have been this past year. You’ve submitted & allowed God to shape & sculpt to show the masterpiece that was always there. ” 

So there we have Trust again… this came like a beautiful word not walking blindly but trusting by faith that God had me no matter this I felt. In this season I got a “no” and I was looking for a “yes” it’s your time. The “no’s” bummed me out more than anything and yet I still wanted to use my faith to declare it would be a yes but really it wasn’t my “yes”.. your yes may not look like the package you’ve imagined but can I say to you that the “yes” will surprise you like you’ve never imagined and it will be a delighted surprise.

So I want to challenge you get a Rhema for your season.. own what he’s exposed in you and know that it’s not the end baby it’s just the beginning!

Your yes and trust that God has this set for you!

Love you friend!

Trust: part one

First the pictures then the Blog!

So then the blog…

I’m learning so much to trust

First: of all to trust Jesus with my life and everything that entails (details 😅)

Second: to trust the word he’s given me

Third: to trust even when you see the promise show it’s head! Like a little sneak peek or even if you’re amongst the promise!

Do any of You understand what I’m saying? If at any point you do.. comment below okay…

So my process: Where “trust” began from the very beginning that’s why this is a series. Because there will be many part..

So it all began in the beginning of 2019 unfolding different areas I was needing to conquer in my identity, in my security, in my spirit, in my ministry just everything.

As I was conquering I needed to stand on a Rhema word but I didn’t have one for all of this so I would just read.. then I got my Rhema from 2018 and wrote it out and God just unfolded that word for my 2019 but unraveled it a bit more for me.

““What bliss you experience when your heart is pure! For then your eyes will open to see more and more of God.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5:8‬ ‭TPT‬‬

So there was my rhema and God began talking to me about “matters of the heart” not just for a future husband or that kinda Love, but because God cares about our lives. The heart and mind work in function to your way of life! I think I did a blog that talked about the function of your heart. Anyways If I did or didn’t I’ll reiterate it here…

Some facts I got from google cause I’m no Doctor!

What is the main function of the heart?

The human heart is an organ that pumps blood throughout the body via the circulatory system, supplying oxygen and nutrients to the tissues and removing carbon dioxide and other wastes. … “If [the heart] is not able to supply blood to the organs and tissues, they’ll die.”

So like the function of the heart and the simple way it can die without getting that oxygen. Jesus needed to be and needs to be my everything he needs to be my OXYGEN!

So my Rhema for 2018 needed to be carried into my 2019 because all of the areas that my heart needed revival my life needed It. So I needed

To TRUST the process JESUS has me in!

Alright that’s part one and we will continue!

We’re not done here we will be back talking more in more details! Maybe the next will be a video!

back to the Garden! Return!


True Surrender is Death to all… where does the Best death come from? in the Garden! Where did Jesus Die? He died on the Cross of course but he broke in the Garden of Gethsemane. He’s taking us back which should’ve never left that which is the BLOOD! 

Surender is the Death 

Surrender is purity coming full circle 

Because God is constantly testing and probing the heart that this thing, this discipleship, this devotional, this time spend a way with him os coming full circle all to encompass Him or for you getting something. 



Are you ready to die? “Follow”  this sounds a little intense but just stick with me. 

There comes a time in our Lives where the Lord wants to help equip us in so many areas in our Lives. He’s wanting to show you and me Him complete in us. 

There is a album that I meditated on when I went through a season of dying and it was the “dwell” album 

There is a part in the song that says this… take a look

“ Just like a dear thirst for the water, I will follow. Just like children dance with their father I will follow you can count on me. You take the lead I’ll stay in your shadow, I will follow”.

Obedience is to follow but the desire is there to follow. Its this place whatever you want me to do Jesus Lets go for it.

Surender is the Death.

He is Constantly speaking to us and speaking directly to our hearts about what we need to really need t adjust and usually it means this

You find Strength in your absolute brokenness. I never really understood what it really meant to die to everything meant but there is always something that the spirit of the Lord is wanting to for us to surrender. When we can come to a place of understanding what it really means to die to something then we get to flourish.

One of my Greatest Mentors Pastor Gloria Salamanca said this…

  1. I;m going to break myself
  2. I am going to Die
  3. I am going to be transformed
  4. and then I can flourish.

-Pastora Gloria Salamanca

How can we flourish is when we truly Die. When we do it ourselves man omgoodness its the best. this afternoon I’ve been just crying and crying in so many ways because this is my hearts cry that what I’m asking for would be so real for me. That I wouldn’t be crying just by my emotions but that I allow this victory to be in me even in the hardest Moments in my Life. When I choose to come full circle I can Break my greatest Jar of alabaster oil and allow my Life to speak for my Heart and purity for the King.

I want to break that down for you because something I was told recently was this by a pastor who shared this He asked His congregation … “why Did Mary break the Alabaster Jar at His (Jesus’) feet?”

I began to ponder on this question myself and the person sharing this story with me shared the answer. The answer was this: Because she by breaking it she couldn’t control where it landed or where it went. So many times we want to give brokenness piece by piece but its meant to be our entire Lives. When you are broken it doesn’t matter where you Land because all for all you belong to Jesus. The death in you in your flesh must come from your heart first and then your mind your thought Life.

I ask this bold question but are you Ready to Go back to the garden and die but to Live for Jesus? whenever you do something for the one you Love its the best brokenness. Can we all stop trying to hold ourselves together when we come before Jesus when thats the place we need to be broken so he can use us!

Psalm 51:17 The Passion Translation (TPT)

17 The fountain of your pleasure is found
in the sacrifice of my shattered heart before you.
You will not despise my tenderness
as I humbly bow down at your feet.





Just Jesus

So guys we have a bit to read here in these verses but we can do it!

I’ve been encouraged by all my G12 sisters back home and the various places they can be on the island just making time for that communion with God “Just Jesus”! I’ve also been super proud of my ladies in my life group (for those of you who don’t know what that is it’s like discipleship on a more intimate level dudes with dudes and Girls with girls. Okay now let’s read…

“Throughout our history God has spoken to our ancestors by his prophets in many different ways. The revelation he gave them was only a fragment at a time, building one truth upon another. But to us living in these last days, God now speaks to us openly in the language of a Son, the appointed Heir of everything, for through him God created the panorama of all things and all time. The Son is the dazzling radiance of God’s splendor, the exact expression of God’s true nature—his mirror image! He holds the universe together and expands it by the mighty power of his spoken word. He accomplished for us the complete cleansing of sins, and then took his seat on the highest throne at the right hand of the majestic One. He is infinitely greater than angels, for he inherited a rank and a Name far greater than theirs. For God has never said to any angel what he said to Jesus: “You are my favored Son, today I have fathered you.” And this: “I will be the Father to him, and he will be the Son to me.””

Hebrews 1:1-5 TPT

SO IM IN LOVE with the Title of this book in the passion translation which is..

Jesus the language of God… hello

That’s basically in the title.. I love the word all that it stands for and this is incredible! Our generation is seeing “Seeing Jesus” in everything they do. Finding the victory in all things even when it doesn’t feel like a win.

Jesus is a person and he wants to know you!

So here we have

‘Be free from pride-filled opinions, for they will only harm your cherished unity . Don’t allow self-promotion to hide in your hearts, but in authentic humility put others first and view others as more important than yourselves. Abandon every display of selfishness. Possess a greater concern for what matters to others instead of your own interests. And consider the example that Jesus, the Anointed One, has set before us. Let his mindset become your motivation.’

Philippians 2:3-5

So who are we looking at again Just Jesus!!!! Woohoo drop all things on the floor and Give him praise cause he’s worthy!!!!

Something to think about:

I was reading my Bible and then going through the devotional we’ve been having every day by different leaders from our church and someone I reflected on was Calvena she’s a leader in our church and she Shared about giving Jesus more than a day more than a Sunday giving her life over to Him. The difference in the worlds opinion of Freedom is self promotion and Jesus wants you all to himself how can we do that when we have other things standing in the way of our own freedom but really this freedom is not free someone else is paying for our choices! So why not say “it is finished” all I want is you Jesus make it “Just Jesus”!!!!

It’s been a while!!!!

Hello 👋 Jurassic world 🌎

So it’s been a while since I’ve blogged and when I say a while it’s been like a month or two!

Whenever I take these necessary breaks with Jesus I come to this new found realization of How much I’m found in Jesus!

So if you’re sitting next to your neighbor tell them hey… “it’s been while!” Maybe your neighbor is looking at you and was like “ummm I just saw you like 20 seconds ago”

And your response:

“Yeah but I’ve missed you and I love you and it’s been 20 seconds too long”

This is the breath that we breath when Jesus is with His favorite person and that person is you! When you’re with him you get marked when you seek him you find Him! It’s all there in the word!

I’ve been heavily meditating on the gospels in the Bible and always have loved the gospels but there was a time when Stephen who in the Bible was the first to die for his faith in Jesus because he spoke about the not containing Jesus in a temple!

Let’s read together:

“However, the Most High does not dwell in sanctuaries made with hands, as the prophet says: Heaven is My throne, and earth My footstool. What sort of house will you build for Me? says the Lord, or what is My resting place?”

‭‭Acts‬ ‭7:48-49‬ ‭HCSB‬‬

When we come to him where do we go?

And all along he’s like (this is Jesus speaking) “I’ve missed you my love”

Yes love ❤️ he calls you love!

So it’s been a while not because you weren’t just not with him or the amount of time you were with him but get this… here it is….

don’t you leave Him 🔥🧩 he’s the missing puzzle piece “it’s been a while” because there should be nothing missing between then and now he’s in it all!

No meanwhile just there present! A place of to meet to have communion with Him is a constant! We are all getting there but it’s the journey and it’s the goal 🥅 of just being with Him!

My dad (Pastor Art Sepulveda) said

“Most people don’t pursue God because the incentive of finding Him isn’t enough”!

We need this time we need this “SEEK”

When everything on the inside isn’t happening we need this more than ever!!!!!

All along he’s saying “it’s been a while”

There is no time or distance so NEVER DISCONNECT!!!!


So lets read together:

Jesus Brings a New Reality

14 The disciples of John the Baptizer approached Jesus with this question: “Why is it that we and the Pharisees fast regularly, but not your disciples?”

15 Jesus replied, “How can the sons of the bridal chamber[i]grieve when the Bridegroom is next to them? But the days of fasting will come when the Bridegroom is taken away from them. 16 And who would mend worn-out clothing with new fabric? When the new cloth shrinks it will rip, making the hole worse than before. 17 And who would pour fresh, new wine into an old wineskin? Eventually the wine will ferment and make the wineskin burst, losing everything—the wine is spilled and the wineskin ruined. Instead, new wine is always poured into a new wineskin so that both are preserved.”[j]

I really Love this subnote:

  1. Matthew 9:15 See Song. 1:4. These sons of the bridal chamber are “Shulamites,” lovers of God.
  2. Matthew 9:17 The teaching of Jesus is the new wine and the new cloth. What Jesus taught cannot patch up the old religious system, nor can it be contained in a wineskin of worn-out traditions. It is new, exhilarating, and powerful. It must be poured into a heart made new. The new and the old are not meant to be together. Jesus makes all things new. He didn’t come to reform Judaism, but to form a twice-born company of people.


Man I love this right here where we are seeing the proof in the Love of God he constanly shows us every single Moment in His presence we are Made new. its never the same. Its never been Done before.

So I thought I would ask some young girls

the only way you can be in the NEW is to believe the Gospel.

You Have to feed on thr right stuff, Feed on that Manna, but even More than that.

Todd White said, “God is looking for somebody that would believe the Gospel, Somebody that would believe that the Gospel is true. That Jesus is Enough!!!!!”

NEW NEW is about Sonship! Do you know who your Daddy is?

I want to share a Vlog/ Video I’m singing some worship but also sharing about the New God has me in and he can do the NEW FOR YOU TOO!




It’s a reflection thing!

I want to say to you before you begin to read this—God is three in one for you. Believe that there is absolute healing for you and cleansing for you. Just come and receive. Drink only from what is good and lovely. He will love you from a slave into a daughter. He will love you from a slave to son. He will love you into a child of God and there is so much confidence in God’s Grace. This is the first gift we receive when we come into His Kingdom!
First and foremost we must speak to that Demon in the Mirror. This doesn’t apply only to women, it applies to men too. However sometimes it seems that we as women are the ones who face more insecurity out loud. 
Question: What is the Demon in the Mirror? 
Answer: First off, you are NOT a demon, but many times we can become slaves to ourselves. What does that mean? That we can get caught up in trying to work our way to anything and everything—including God’s Love and His Divine Presence. When it does not work like that at all…It’s by Grace and only Grace that we are in this Kingdom! No work necessary. We need simply to come to this Grace, and do it gracefully. In order to have that full satisfaction in His arms and to speak to ourselves daily “I am beautiful and wonderfully created to work in this Kingdom to be a light to not waste time and to Love everyone. I’m called to be a lover of righteousness and hate what is evil. I will be hope for others. When they see me they see Jesus. WHY?? Because the Demon has left and I see only Jesus in me. 
Recently I travelled to Bogota, Colombia for a Women’s Conference and I saw my Pastor (Pastor Cesar). I love Him so much because of how he loves me right where I’m at even though so many times I feel like he’s reading my mail and my heart through everything. Yes. My Pastor is human. No, he’s not God, but I’ll tell you this— he looks more and more like Jesus every single day. I want to quickly say to you that when you come into this Grace, there is effortless love that carries on. You too will LOOK LIKE Jesus!!
So when I got to this conference, I was watching a video and part of the message was about asking God to reveal to you what He looks like as God Our Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. Remember when I said God is three in one for you? THIS is what I mean. The task is to just ask Him and begin to write or type or even draw—whatever your fancy is. You can even sculpt! It’s a specific freedom for your hands to create. So I began to do that and it wasn’t clear to me until I saw my Pastor again. We (me and my Mom) hadn’t seen him for almost the whole conference. We weren’t sure if we were even going to be able to, but my mom was determined to see him. No matter what! We got backstage and by the grace of Jesus, we seriously bumped into Pastor Cesar. I know God was wooing me to see him because I could feel things in me I wasn’t even sure about that HAD TO GO! 
I saw him and without skipping a beat, I began to flood with tears in my eyes just saying …”Thank you, Thank you, I so needed this and I knew it took me coming here and even to the point of seeing you.” 
He began to share with us about spititual warfare and how we never fight in the flesh always in the spirit. Let me say that one more time: 🗣 WE NEVER FIGHT IN THE FLESH, ONLY IN THE SPIRIT! 
He then began to speak into my life saying “Alexis, there is a deep longing for the call in you. You’ve been willing and you desire it. You’ve felt you’ve wasted so much time but you don’t want to do that anymore so youve been praying asking God what next, what next? But there needs to be a cleansing in your soul. Your mind, your will and your emotions…even in the words you speak to yourself.” I was flooded again with tears and knew exactly what he was talking about and things are continuing to reveal themselves even as the days go on. 
Walking into your calling by Grace. Grace means never being ashamed of who you are. You need to look in to that mirror and always see Jesus living in you.
Funny story:
I have a cold sore on my lip right now and then on our way home, my sister braided my hair the way I wanted it. It was super cute: three braids on my whole head.
Anyways I had to go through customs and before that even happened Natty started saying “wow I love those braids you look like a UFC fighter…like you just finished or you’re going to it!”
I was like “ummm no not a fighter sister.” Then she said, “wow I love how this looks!” Well we went through security and this young security guy tells me “hey did you just finish a fight?” I said, “NOPE—I’m not a fighter not that kind omg 🙄” and I literally said “that’s it these braids gotta go.”
My sister said, “no please don’t take it out I’m super proud of these braids and you wanted them!”
Remember this: Grace is never trying to be someone else just because someone has a specific perception of you. People who you don’t know. You don’t have to prove to anyone anything to them. So all of this to say when you look in the mirror you need to tell yourself who you are like I did before. Speak to the demon in the mirror. Speak to your soul. Speak to your mind, will, and emotions.
I want to leave you with this verse to read:
“There has never been a generation that has been given the detailed understanding of this glorious and divine mystery until now. He kept it a secret until this generation. God is revealing it only now to his sacred apostles and prophets by the Holy Spirit. Here’s the secret: The gospel of grace has made you, non-Jewish believers, into coheirs of his promise through your union with him. And you have now become members of his body—one with the Anointed One!”
Ephesians 3:5-6 TPT
You are CHOSEN!! You need to remind yourself to get it together and say “I’m a child of God and I’m a product of grace! So therefore I can walk this out!!!!! Anywhere you go I’ll go!”
Love you!!!